Being Honest

Sooooo, It's been a little while since I've posted and a few things have happened.

Number 1) I lost another friend. She's the first one I told I might try this next year and we stopped talking. Over something stupid but it was coming down to the normal, Is this a friendship? Is this a good friendship? It was over something dumb too but like everyone says before...People grow and change and lose friends. After cutting every single friend except ONE out of my life this year for various reasons I didn't think I could afford losing another one. But, I did. How do I feel? Relieved. I was upset at first but someone pointed out--Look at the friendship. Was there anything really lost? And with this one...Not really. I just realized that she was just a number. Which was awful and I do miss the friendship we sorta had but...That's okay. I'll live.

Number 2) I told my other friend what I'd like to do. This is the friend who is an athlete for a college. A pretty GOOD college and she's in her senior year and my polar opposite in everything. We were just hanging out, Me drinking water, her drinking well, smirnoff and I told her. She laughed slightly at first and then looked at me going, "I can kinda picture you doing that." What she basically meant was that she didn't pictured me really well, settled down with a guy since in the past I tend to take off before it go to that point when every single moment has to be spent together. I find that point annoying so we'd always break up. After that she's like, "Use my eggs!" I'm like, dude, I got my own eggs but thanks. Then she got quiet for like 5 minutes thinking. Thinking what? I have NO clue.

Number 3) I set up an appointment. I set up THE appointment. Well not THE appointment but you know the appointments for questions and stuff. It's in January. My doctor still just thinks I'm getting checked up. Well early. How she reacts is how I'll probably react to it all. I just don't want to be looked at like I'm crazy or for anyone to think I'm dumb. I'm going into this as serious as I can be.

Anyways, I'll try and blog more but there's just some days where I'm like Eh.

I hope everyone enjoyed thanksgiving!